Purpose For Life

I know two different me….

One who wakes up and gets out of her bed running to start working on whatever is on her head. Excited about the work she has in her hand…. who gets happy when she crosses small small hurdles…. stays patient when she is unable to cross a hurdle…. tries again and again with her full enthusiasm and happiness…. feels inner satisfaction after finishing her work….

The other one, who when wakes up feels lazy about getting up… who is lost in different kind of thoughts…. what if this happens…. what if that happens…. gets up slowly… starts her work half heatedly… still lost in thousand of thoughts, she has nothing to do with…. her achievements doesn’t makes much sense for her…. gives up easily when she gets stuck somewhere…. when a work is done, she just feels relieved that finally it’s over…. she keeps finishing tasks over tasks but it never gives her any inner satisfaction… feeling of fulfillment…

The only difference is the work in my hand…. the purpose for which I am running…. how much I enjoy it…. how much I feel related to it…. how much I am into it….

In this world, everyone is running in some or other race…. but does everyone know where they are heading to…. and do they really want to be there…. they are just running because they are scared that they will be left behind if they don’t start running as soon as possible…. shouldn’t we stop for a while, take a deep breath and choose our path depending upon where do we really want to reach…. may be we miss our destination running on someone else’s path and then we realize that we wasted the entire time….

I am not you…you are not me… neither our wishes…. our dreams are same….then how can our destination?? our paths?? our purpose for life…. it’s all about how well we have chosen our purpose for life… have u chosen your PURPOSE wisely????

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THOUGHTS…

Sitting in the balcony with my coffee mug and staring at the stars… thinking of you…. thinking of me… and why things are as they are… Why am I here out of all the places in this world… thinking of you out of all the people I have ever met…. thinking of destinies… our stories… how people meet and become part of each other’s stories… how when I look back at past, I feel this moment must have appeared so damn impossible at that point…

This life runs so fast… before we could realize what’s actually happening, everything has already happened… before we could understand how forces of nature work in writing our story, we always have a new twist, a new turn, a new surprise….

Sometimes I feel it’s not part of work to think that how things are going to be in the future… because my story has a course of its own… it has to go on it’s own way… I am a mere actor… script is already written… even if I do my best preparation… life will give me something I wont even have thought of…

But still I can’t lay back and just enjoy the scenes… I worry for future… I plan for it… because I am unable to accept that I am not the writer of my story… that I am powerless… I am just a puppet… I try my best to prove that… no, I am the master… things will happen as I choose…

Or may be it’s just a balance between life an me… Life gives me challenges and I face it in my own style… life gives me rocky surfaces to walk on and I dance on my own tune with my own crazy steps… it’s just like a game… life’s turn and then my turn… sometimes life gets hell and sometimes it gets super amazing… but at the end , it’s my best PARTNER…

So, THOUGHTS…. so random… so vague… takes you from where to where… and still I am sitting in my balcony with my coffee mug staring at the stars…..

 

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Why is there never enough of you… I feel like a diabetic and you are like sugar… Killing yet addictive…

Move On….

Searching for words, but I feel to be mute… I wish I could understand the reason for this silence… May be I am hurt… But being hurt is part of this life… you can’t always win… you have to loose sometimes… your heart break… you feel lonely… looser… but that’s never the complete picture… that’s just a part of it…

People who don’t care for you…. doesn’t deserve to be a part of your life… So you should tell them bye bye with a smile… They have already taken their decisions… It’s your time now… Either you keep weeping that they don’t exist anymore…. Or just smile because they came and there are many more yet to come… may be even better ones… before meeting these people you never knew that someone is going to come in your life and become such integral part of you, then how do you know that no one else is going to come who will be even more closer and dearer to you…

Stop following dead shadows… who have already left… better to be with loving alive people who care for you and make your life beautiful… OK, I agree yesterday was beautiful but don’t let it become the most beautiful moments of your life… your tomorrow is still a blank white canvas, you can paint it more colorful and beautiful… Why to limit your life, put it in the prison of memories…

If they would have cared enough for you, they would have made effort to stay but they didn’t… So, you can’t force them to care for you…. Better to spend your time searching for people who respect your feelings for them and care for you back….

So, time to Move On….

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Sorry, I can’t run behind you…..

I can just walk with you… if you like…

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Wish I could escape this world of yours…. Your desires…. Your expectations….

Did I really ever mean anything for you…. I really doubt…. I was just a piece which you could showcase for your status symbol…. An item just to satisfy your hollow ego….

You could never see me as an imperfect human being… Who can feel… Who can get hurt… When a stranger doesn’t understand me, I can get it but you are my own… why do you never try to understand my feelings…..

What to do… I love you… I don’t want to hurt you but I am tired of bearing this pain…..

I don’t want to impress anyone… Prove that I am the best…. I am happy with my limitations, my imperfections…. I accept them as a part of me….

Please let ME be ME…….

For The Love Of Love… <3 <3

LOVE

….. A POWER which makes you stronger than what you can ever imagine of yourself….

….. A DRUG which can weaken you, bring you on your knees, make you beg, surrender beyond your imagination….

….. A BLESSING which can brighten your life, lighten the hidden dark corners….

….. A CURSE which can make you lonely in the crowd, steal you from yourself….

….. A REWARD which makes you feel complete as if all of your wishes have been fulfilled….

….. A PUNISHMENT which makes everything appears incomplete, feeling of hollowness scares your soul….

….. Makes you feel ALIVE, makes you feel beating of your heart, rhythm of your breath….

….. KILLS you, rips your heart into pieces….

….. A GOOD INFLUENCE, makes you sacrifice, think of your love before yourself….

….. A BAD INFLUENCE, makes you jealous, possessive, burns you into fire of selfish desires….

….. BEAUTIFIES your world, makes you enter a wonderland full of colors and brightness….

….. RUINS your world, everything looses it’s charm, it’s beauty, nothing is left good enough….

….. LOVE is Power, Drug, Blessing, Curse, Reward, Punishment, what makes feel Alive, Killer, Good Influence, Bad Influence, what beautifies, what ruins….

….. LOVE is a FEELING which makes you realize, you are just another perfectly imperfect HUMAN BEING….

…… That was all for the LOVE of LOVE. ❤ ❤

Faith…

I don’t know what

I am searching for….

But it will be mine

That’s for sure….

 

I don’t want to look back

and think what I have lost….

Just want some dreams to come true

no matter how much they cost….

 

I lost my love, I lost my dreams

but still life is going on….

I can’t stop and cry for them

I know I can’t get what has gone….

 

I feel like a looser

who lost everything…

No aim, no passion

but waiting for something…..

 

When I see in the mirror

I don’t recognize myself…

I want to believe it’s a nightmare

or want to cry for help….

 

I want to run away

leaving everything midway….

but i know it won’t work

it’s just easy to say…

 

But I have strong faith

that one time will come…

When night will be gone

and I’ll be the rising sun…..

 

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Life will take you through the same paths again and again…

but you’ll find a different traveler inside you every time…. 😉 🙂

The One

You are the one, who will chose

What your life is going to be….

As common as sand

or as rare as diamond

 

Don’t follow others

Like under magic spell…

Have the courage to say

I’ll make my own way….

 

Don’t hide between others

Come in spotlight…

Have a strong determination

and a clear future sight….

 

If you fail don’t feel

that you are low….

You need to be polished

before you start to glow….

 

Play with your own rules

don’t copy, don’t cheat….

Possibilities are alive,

also after facing defeat….

 

Your defeat is a victory

for who deserved it more…

Improve your own skills

to increase your score…

 

If you want to shine like a diamond

you will have to pay the price….

Only existing is not enough

be great and not just nice…..