Let’s wait for the Sunrise…

With the increasing no. of depression cases and news of suicide attempts by young people, it forces us to face the reality… That everything is not as it appears… there are hollow hearts behind those beautiful smiling faces… They are already dying from inside… It’s just one day, they decide to end this story of pain and misery… and are declared dead medically….

I always wanted to write about depression and talk to all those people who are going through it… because I have been one of them… but I have been lucky to come out of it…thanks to support and trust of my friends and family…

I think, I was depressed from the time I know myself and I wanted to commit suicide from the time I realized that I was alive… Although I never did an attempt but had planned that I’ll jump from some high point whenever I’ll have to kill myself when I was 11-12 years old (as I have always loved heights…)

I could have done it and then I would not have been writing this piece… I would not have been sharing my experience with you… I would not have been telling you to wait, there is light on the other side of the tunnel… there is morning after every dark night… just wait a little longer… and you don’t know what life has in store for you…

I was depressed because I felt that I was the biggest problem for my family… If I would not have existed… may be everything would have been perfect… and may be it really would have been… but isn’t committing suicide just another name for giving up…

I could have given up and everyone would have forgotten me after some time… but now I feel that it’s better that I exist today… to give my family all the love and care, they have given me… to stand by them when they need someone…

It’s not just about that miserable phase… because when everything is gone tomorrow is still left… in that phase, all of us feel like the biggest looser… But that’s just a phase…If today is not our day…Tomorrow may be… but only if we wait till that tomorrow…

At times, it’s just a war between those who believe in you… who support you and those who don’t… can’t we just fight for those people who believe in us… who have kept everything on stake for us… shouldn’t we prove those non-believers wrong…

I had been a patient of depression for around 12 years… and it has been killing at times… But just holding on for little longer… Waiting for everything to be alright… brought me HERE… where I am not very successful…But I am HAPPY… I am happy to be who I am… and thankful for courses through which life has taken me… because it made me… ME… and now when people ask me, how do you manage to stay so happy?? It appears as if no trouble has ever touched you… I just smile…

you’ll fail in exams… you’ll stay unemployed… you’ll have heartbreak… you’ll loose someone whom you loved badly… and you can have many more reasons… but none of them is strong enough for quitting… because story of your life is still untold… there are many interesting twists and turns still waiting for you… you can’t even imagine what can you be tomorrow… someone whom you have always wanted to be or even better… But it can only happen if you wait for the dark night to pass… and light to come… only… if you wait for the SUNRISE…

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6 thoughts on “Let’s wait for the Sunrise…

  1. Have read many posts on Depression and Depressed people, have looked into few eyes(my friends) who talk about how bad they have been feeling and thinking of doing something unbelievably wrong.
    And then here you are smiling today after fighting those tough days.. you were 12.. just 12.

    Thanks for sharing your story, this post may end up pulling hundreds from jumping of the cliff.. and remember, talking & expressing solves billions of problems. Take care!!

  2. Lovely post dear, I’m a manic depression iv been dealing with it for over 20+ years and i have attempted suicide a number of times in my life do to depression but I’m much better now then i was but i still have bad days with it and mood drops from it often.
    I’m happy for you that you got help and got past it.
    ❤️✌️
    BY FOR NOW

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